Tears in Life

[Song: Chasing the Sun by The Wanted]

They guide my fears
They watch my tear streaks.
For all our problems,
They always want to blame me.
A scapegoat,
Can’t escape the responsibility.
They never care
As long as they’re not scared, but me.

He doesn’t see others,
He only sees me.
He says that I’m the problem
But never that he hates me.
He claims love,
Yet always discriminates.
The youngest get his love,
The older are too late.

I never wished for much,
But can’t you see me?
Love has always meant so much
To me.
I’ll always love you,
As you can see.
But I don’t think you’re good for me.

I love you, Daddy, but I can’t be near you anymore.

I love you family, but I see that I’ll never truly have your support.

I’ll drift along alone, looking for that special one.

And maybe then I will see the real sun.

Ave Atque Vale.


Fears of a Lonely Child.

Clawing at my throat
Dangling by the chains that I swallowed to hide.
The fear.
Fear that everything bad thing I imagined will be true.
Fear that every amazing outcome is possible.
Fear of my dreams-my thoughts-my hopes.
So I take that fear
I hide it in a cupboard.
The cupboard is every fake laugh
Every fake smile
Every groan during the during the day
And every illusion during my insomnia nights.
My fears control me.
And that is the only thing that I’ll ever hate.

Good Future/Beautiful

Christmas or Yuletide?

It is common knowledge that Christmas was placed at the end of the year by the Catholic church to continue the tradition if Yuletide celebrations (Jesus was really born in the spring). So why is it that Christmas seems more pagan with each passing year? Christmas has now become known as shopping, presents, and parties season in the States. Yet when Thanksgiving rolled around, people don’t know what to be thankful for. How about being thankful dor that huge meal you ate then, huh? There are people starving out there whom you could take in for one day if the season. Nothing big, just feeding them and getting them some warm clothes. Not too hard, right?

Still a multipersonalitied weirdo

Words of Wisdom

  • “Life sucks… and then you die.”
  • “Responsibility is the freedom that comes from acting our will.” -Belle from Love (and other uses for duct tape)
  • “With every passing moment, you’re closer to death. But make sure you live.” -Me
  • “Life sucks and then you die. Then you realize that it was unsucky and come back.” -Snow and  Angel from ttyl  w/input from Me
  • “Nicknames are who you are. If someone calls you something that doesn’t match you, then you don’t have to respond.” -Me
  • “Live your life without regrets. There’s no rewind button on life, and even if there was, YOLO was made for a reason.” -Me
  • “Live only for yourself and those you value. But only do things that impress you, not for others.” -Me
  • “Do it up, the past is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, that’s why its called the present.” -Bil Keane
  • “Love is louder than the need to be perfect.” -Demi Lovato
  • “The only way I’d be caught without makeup is if my radio fell in the bathtub while I was taking a bath and electrocuted me and I was in between makeup at home. I hope my husband would slap a little lipstick on me before he took me to the morgue.” -Dolly Parton



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